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"I Don't Know"

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There’s this idea that we’re always supposed to seek advice. “Get another opinion.” “Talk it through.” “Make sure you’re not making a decision alone.” And while that works beautifully for some people… I’m not entirely sure it works for me. Because here’s the thing no one talks about: when you’re already an overthinker, adding more voices to the room doesn’t bring clarity — it brings noise. I don’t struggle with a lack of options. I struggle with having too many. Every opinion, every perspective, every “well have you thought about…” doesn’t just sit lightly in my brain. It settles in. It echoes. It expands. And suddenly what was once a simple decision feels like a 37-tab browser open in my mind, each one demanding attention. People tell you to listen to others before making a final decision so you have options. But what happens when you already see every possible option? What happens when your brain has already mapped out ten outcomes, five backup plans, and three worst-case sce...
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The Year I Went Quiet

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I didn’t write at all in 2025 on my blogger page.  Not because I didn’t have thoughts. Not because I didn’t have feelings. But because my mind was fighting a battle I didn’t understand. Coming home from studying abroad was supposed to feel like comfort. Graduation was supposed to feel like accomplishment. Moving into a new place was supposed to feel like independence. Being in love was supposed to feel safe. Instead, it felt like everything was slipping through my fingers. I’ve always been known as the happy one. The emotional one. The girl who feels everything deeply. I love that about myself — my heart is big. I care hard. I love loudly. But what I didn’t realize was that when you feel everything deeply, you also feel the lows deeply. After coming back from abroad and stepping into post-grad life, something shifted. I was smiling in photos. I was spending time with people I love. I was building a life. And yet, underneath it all, there was this quiet fear. That ev...
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Who Do You Want To Be?

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....... Who do you want to be? It’s a question that holds more weight than we realize. It’s not just about careers or accomplishments—it’s about how we show up in the world, the energy we bring, and the love we share. For me, it’s always been about the energy I radiate and the people I surround myself with. I’m a person of energy, and my whole life has been shaped by the love and connections I’ve shared with others. One of the people who inspired me to write this post is my roommate, Addie. She recently reminded me of the impact I have on others, especially when it comes to love and energy. She told me how the things I’ve done for the international students who came to America—how I tried to make their experience the best it could be—have left a lasting impression. Her words inspired this blog because they made me realize just how powerful love and energy can be. Energy and Connection Energy is contagious, and it thrives in the presence of others. The people around us shape who we are,...
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ALL THE TRICKS

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Studying Abroad: Tips, Tricks, and Lessons Learned Studying abroad can be one of the most exciting and life-changing experiences, but it also comes with challenges and a lot to prepare for. If you're thinking about studying abroad, especially in a place like Germany—less touristy and bustling than major European cities—this post is for you! I began my study abroad journey in March 2024, but my preparation started a year prior. I wanted to push myself out of my comfort zone and explore somewhere unique—not the typical Italy or Spain experience. I chose Germany, a country with a rich culture and history but quite different from the bustling, warm city life I was used to. Here's my story and everything I wish I'd known before starting this adventure. 1. The Visa Process: Start Early! One of the biggest lessons I learned was the importance of getting my visa sorted before arriving in Germany. Initially, I was told I could get my visa after arriving, but this wasn’t true....
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Faith, Fear, and Finding Peace Abroad

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As I sit here listening to Elevation Worship, I feel inspired to reflect on how my faith carried me through my journey abroad. The song "Sure Been Good" was my anchor during those months, and every time I hear it, it opens my heart and reminds me of God’s presence. Whether I was sitting on the Deutsche Bahn, staring out the window with my AirPods in, or navigating a completely foreign environment, this song became a source of peace and reassurance for me.   Before leaving for my trip, I attended Coastal BCM at C3 Coffee Bar (a place I absolutely love right across campus). During one of our sessions, I asked David, who was leading us, how I could stay connected to God without having a church overseas. He told me something simple but powerful: “Take your Bible, listen to your favorite worship music, and find your peace in Him wherever you are.” That advice stayed with me and became my guide in moments of uncertainty.   There were times I felt overwhelmed—whether lost i...
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Finding My Way Back Home After Studying Abroad

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The Feelings Returning from my time abroad has been a complicated tangle of emotions I’m still trying to sort through. It’s amazing how transformative a few months can be, how they can etch themselves so deeply into your life and make everything familiar feel... unfamiliar. The whole experience changed me, and I want to share every detail of it with everyone around me. But how do you explain that feeling, that longing, without feeling like you’re trying to relive a past that no one else was there for?  I catch myself wanting to bring up stories and memories constantly—small moments that defined my day-to-day life while I was away. Those late nights laughing with friends who understood me without needing to try or the mundane daily routines that became comforting in a strange new place. It feels like these memories are right at the surface, begging to spill out, but I hold them back. I don’t want to be “that person” who seems like they’re always stuck in the past. I don’t want peopl...
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